Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?
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Have you ever felt alone in a crowded room before?
Its ok if you have because you are not alone. I feel that way almost constantly. Like I am the odd ball out, and I am just there to fill space. Its like a case of the ugly duckling, or the kid who is just there and no one knows why. This is no pity party, believe me. I just feel like when I am around most people, they don't get me, and don't even try to. Very select people in this world actually know me for who I truly am. Don't get me wrong, I love socializing and being with a crowd who actually talks and can hold a conversation with me...... but I feel that most people don't even bother trying having a full out, deep conversaton with me. This is kind of depressing because I am a very deep person, I am a great listener and I have a great perspective on things.... people just dont even bother getting to know me. To them it seems that I am just there and they just accept me into their "groups" because they have to. They peg me with names to joke around and such, but I know even though they are joking around they actually do mean what they say(sadly). If they didnt mean it, they would actually be able to sit down and have a full out conversation with me.... but they don't. I know when people joke around with me that it is all in good humor and they dont mean to hurt me..... but after a while it starts to eat away and hurt more. I just wish everyone knew me for who I am and not take me for granted.
Until then, I remain the odd ball out, the fly on the wall... just taking up space waiting for someone to reach out to me.
